Archive for June, 2010

Death: It’s Not Anything Bad to Worry

It’s such a touchy topic but it’s so simple to conquer. So I’ll do that part for you… WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE (someday)!!! I’m going to do it and you’re going to do it. But there are two different ways to approach it. You can do nothing with the life you are endowed with or you can enjoy your life by making it the best it can be until death (and maybe even after death).

If you choose to do nothing special with your life, that’s okay. No one cares. If you want to be a nothing until you die, the world won’t miss you and once you’re gone it won’t matter to you or anyone else. That’s pretty much all I have to say to the few of you who are so pressed on DEATH that you cannot focus on the world in your LIFE.

Now I’m talking to those of you who want to actually have a place in the world while you’re alive and possibly after. You’ve already embraced the fact that you’re going to die. (Congrats, now you have years ahead of you to make your life worth dying for!) It doesn’t take a large amount of money or education to make the value of your life skyrocket. The measure of a man’s success is not in units of currency or numbers of college degrees. Remember, WE’RE ALL GOING TO DIE. You can’t take all of your expensive items with you to the dirt. (I mean you can, but they’ll just get dirty and never be useful for anyone ever again)

It’s actually not a quantitative matter at all. It’s a qualitative matter. This means that nothing you can count matters, be it the time you spent on earth, the amount of money you earned, the amount of people you dated… none of that. If you have ever made a goal to do something for someone else and acted upon your goal, you have done enough to say that you’re a valued individual. A successful person is someone who will be remembered fondly after they’ve come and gone from the face of this planet.


Synaesthesia (wikipedia it )

1) Grapheme-color / Personification


This is a layout of the different colors of each letter or number I see. It doesn’t change. However certain words have their own colors such as the word “rock” just being gray. Also, each letter and number has it’s own gender and personality. Example: 7 is a cynical girl with dark medium-length hair and 9 is a spoiled preppy chick with blonde hair.

2) Mirror Touch

This condition is a little less self-explanatory. Synaesthetes with mirror-touch synaesthesia feel sensations when they see someone else be touched or hit. This is why I physically cannot hit people in sensitive spots. If I struck someone in the nose, I would feel a sensation of pain very briefly in my own nose. When I was a kid I remember a fight I was involved in (that I unproudly won) where I beat the other kid in his head but I cried to mommy because I knew how much it hurt the other guy even though he was trying to hurt me. I’m a very empathetical person because of this form. I’m also a hypochondriac. :-p

3) Sound -Touch Synaesthesia

I used to find it strange that I feel things when I hear certain sounds. I ALWAYS get an excruciating tooth-ache in my bottom tooth when I hear metal screeching or when I even think about it. (No my teeth aren’t grinding together).

Synaesthesia is a very broad subject of people whose senses seem to interfere with other senses. Google or Bing for some information on Synaesthetes because I simply can’t list every different condition. Some cases involve people with perfect pitch who see colors for every sound or pitch. Other cases involve people who might feel a prickly sensation in the hand when they taste chocolate. I have a friend who smells cheese when he hears the name of his uncle.

*Check it out on youtube


So, I believe it’s official that I am the most indecisive person I know. Here’s a perfect example: it took me over an hour of google searching and bing searching to figure out what I wanted to have as my blog background image. This is very normal for me but it’s really starting to affect my life.

Degree Program(s): I’m an ex-trombonist who plays multiple instruments pretty well. I finally managed to switch over to clarinet by re-auditioning at VCU. I thought I FINALLY made up my mind about something. Well…, I’m double-majoring in music education and psychology with the pre-med concentration. Music ED because I will have lots of back-up in music and pre-med because I don’t know if I want to go to grad school or med school. (Apparently there IS a difference between Neurology and Neuroscience). I really like studying the brain, which is partly what makes me like education.

Shopping: I have spent so much money on jeans (money that I barely had) and other items simply because I couldn’t make up my mind on what I wanted. “Oh no… what if I want jeans with holes on some days but on other days I just want regular bootcut jeans….” My shopping strategy has always been “If I can’t pick one, I’ll pick BOTH.”

Selling things: Well, I haven’t really sold anything yet because everything I’ve always come up with some sort of reason to keep everything I own. I wanted to sell my trombone, but in the back of my mind I’m thinking “Maybe ONE day I’ll want to play it again and I spent so much time with it I can’t simply just sell it.”

When people say “it’s up to you” to me: THE WORST THING TO EVER SAY TO ME… Number 1) I’m wondering what would be nice for BOTH of us, and Number 2) I can’t decide what I would want to do MYSELF

But I’d have to say that the degree program section is the part that’s troubling me the most. I’m never going to be successful unless I either PICK ONE… or figure out a way to be successful combining BOTH which would be one plan. We all have to have a focus in our lives. No one wants to look at a photo where the background is just as clear as the foreground.